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Wednesday, June 18, 2008

The Night Owl

The Night Owl
Dorcas Annette Walker

The rest of the world is sleeping as I slowly ease my body down in the recliner to try and lessen my level of pain. All is silent except for the sound of my husband snoring in the next room. Even Lucy Lou, my faithful companion, is curled up at my feet sleeping leaving me totally alone in the dim darkness. I turn on the lamp beside me and try to read to divert my mind, hoping that my pain lowers enough so I can lie back down in bed and relax enough to fall asleep. Time seems to drag. The page blurs in front of me. I blink my eyes and try to focus while ignoring the nagging pain radiating throughout my body. My head falls over jerking me awake from a semi-doze. My entire body is begging for relief that sleep will give if only I can get to that state.

I have a choice. Take a pain narcotic and get enough relief to fall asleep, but leave me the next day feeling dopey and dizzy with my balance affected or try and trick my body into relaxing enough to fall asleep and then feel like myself the next day. If only my crazy bones would cooperate and let the pain lessen just a slight bit I could control my life without another pill. My fogged mind argues back and forth. To pop a pill or not to pop a pill- that is the question of my life.